i'm finally admitting that i hate my college experience
it's nothing i imagined it would be, and i'm starting to think that committing to san diego state may have been a huge mistake
admitting it is something it hate; it feels like i'm admitting failure
i don't have many friends, and the ones i do, i don't even feel that close to
i make friends, then i feel like i can't connect to them and honestly, sometimes i can't even stand them
i don't go out mostly because i get annoyed over the half naked girls and thirsty guys, it's just not a culture i even want to be apart of
i've never felt so out of place in a community before
i've never felt like so much of a loner or loser before
i hate it, i hate my college experience
i stayed in san diego because i thought it'd be adventurous and exciting
i never thought it would come to me realizing that i'm falling approximately 40k in debt to attend a school that i despise being at
should i have gone to michigan state? grand valley? probably. that's how i feel right now. at least i'd have some familiar faces from my hometown, and most of all, i'd have my family.
currently, being alone, broke, and depressed in a big city fucking sucks.
